tabf5
1 week ago
The word "harrowing" isn't even strong enough to describe the state of the world anymore, but I'm glad I also have your same coping mechanism of trying to only focus on being the best person I can be to the people immediately around. The universe really likes to deal shit hands. Thanks again for sharing these vulnerable writings, they're amazing as ever to read and reflect with
barracudachan
1 week ago
God will never throw more on you than you can bear. He put that strength and wisdom in you for a reason.
anthill
1 week ago
chesca u make the world a better place. it is a pleasure to know u thru the screen
tchun
1 week ago
i can't imagine many things harder to write about than the death of someone close to me. as in, truly exploring it, and reflecting on a life lost. this is so beautiful chesca, inspirational even. thank you.
shittymeat999
1 week ago
This reminded me to try and show more emotions!! God, I never felt more understood about loving and hating a family member at the same time.
rampkins
2 weeks ago
Dude, if your uncle's are offering to sponsor you to go to law school tell them you want to be a human rights lawyer - I doubt that's what they'd got planned for your future!
chesca
2 weeks ago
Thanks, Rampkins! That’s really kind of you! However, I recently impulsively enrolled in something else this year xD but I might consider studying law someday :))
hisahito
3 weeks ago
that blog entry was a really beautiful read... not in like a creepy way but in a way i can understand... i hope that one day you get the courage to feel more comfortable with yourself (if thats the right words...) <3
anthill
3 weeks ago
rejection does sting, but they'll be okay. save your tuesdays for people who can actually match your freak
tabf5
3 weeks ago
DAMN you're a good writer, hope you find someone one day who just wants to be honest and embrace imperfections
rampkins
3 weeks ago
People put on masks to seem normal and get on. You never know, tuesday guy might be a secret orc-gy fetishist too - no limbs left attached!
rampkins
3 weeks ago
Well, I clicked on the floating brain and read some stuff - wow, where do you go to university, Stepford!
chesca
3 weeks ago
Thanks man! interesting about page. stats cracked me up and i stand by your MOANifesto xD
maxcrunch
3 weeks ago
I feel the same way about NeoCities, also being dumb enough to use my real name lol. I'm glad you've had positive experiences here!
mazapandust
3 weeks ago
i feel very similarly! neocities fills a void tumblr used to occupy, being a space to express innermost thoughts and connect with likeminded strangers. but also i teach primary school so i have to be mindful to not put anything on my site i wouldn't want my students to stumble across xD
barndoors
3 weeks ago
yo teacher in the house thanks for all your hard work supporting our future maza
maddoxxing
3 weeks ago
i, too, tend to tone down or write less about my personal and deep vulnerabilities thanks to an audience i've attracted over the two years i've been here. sucks but kinda doesn't suck bc no one needs to know half the shit i write LMAO.
tabf5
3 weeks ago
I stand by the statement that the difficulty curve to build a site on Neocities is what leads to such high-quality people on here. I pretty much pour almost all of the social energy I have that would normally be wasted on a giant social media app and never regret it because everyone else is also excited to be here. Being on Neocities is a great and fulfilling time in an otherwise terrifying world right now
barracudachan
3 weeks ago
I left social media for the same reason. Most people on there are both ignorant AND arrogant. Not a good combo.
stoneroad
3 weeks ago
It's a weird feeling to read about someone liking their name so much lol. I'm the complete opposite. I've come up with a dozen pennames jsut so I wouldn't have to use my real name because I dislike it so much. I was actually just getting ready to write a blog post on it lol.
vagabondj
3 weeks ago
Hi- you have a very nice article! I have to heavily disagree, however. While there have been plenty of pretty cool A-Ok people, NeoCities for the most part is a quiet and lonely place overall unless you have a popular website. Also, don't sell yourself short- You have 166 followers and tons of likes and comments on the posts you make here! You already blew up lol
chesca
3 weeks ago
Hello, vagabond! I believe u can be surrounded by sooo many people and still feel lonely. As I mentioned, I spent the first three years immersed in my little website with zero audience. And I know being alone and quiet doesn’t necessarily mean being lonely if u enjoy your own company :> Thank you for the kind words! I understand if u disagree with me as i can be wrong & silly or I might've misunderstood what u mean.
happy birthday! <3
queen chesca has a nice ring to it
death is peace - happy bday :)
happy birthday! <3 (i love your website sm)
When adults have those tantrums with you over miniscule things, that says more about them than it does you. The fact that they can easily put you down for simply doing your job shows that they're the kind of people that take the good things in their life for granted constantly. But they're mistake is they won't realize what they have until it's gone. And what a traumatic day that will be
@barra. ty! sound as though you're speaking from experience. 👀
@chesca partially lol
ehhhhh, i kind of understand losing your shit when money's involved. it's hard to lose money, especially if you're poor. i suppose you'd know better than i would if that person you mentioned is or not. loans are...fucked up. it's not your fault, though. i'm really sorry they took it out on you.
@benny. ty! that helps :))
Happy birthday!!! I luv ur site ...u are so sweet 🎂