I was feeling so empty and hopeless. I still am to some degree. But I can't rely on such an unstable feeling. Expressing anguish is part of the (i)deal.

consume, be silent, die.

Sorry! It's saint patrick's day! I got tipsy and went a little bananas over some particular person's attitude. Help yourself to some more content on my page!

I wrote something you might enjoy-you all 300 some people...https://www.indiedb.com/members/nmodern/blogs/this-place-feels-like-a-wasteland

is are the views going up on my site ? I can't tell...I notice it but I'm not keeping track. Who the hell are you ?! A cave full of bats acting in sync ?

Also: I think I can get certified in html and itf before finding a job. I'm not sure how this will play out since progress is criminally slow but so far I think I got a good grip on what to do-it just consumes most of my time. It's all I want to do. I can hardly even enjoy myself. It's just work to get out of this slum.